Oh what a day!

Oh what a day!

I am sure there is more important things to do right now than hear about my day, but it was the worst. Most amazing day I have had in a long time. Being so close to Christmas I feel like it all happened for a reason and was life altering for me. Isn’t at the end of the day that a big part of the Christmas season. It was more a day of forgiveness for me if that makes any sense and it is also a day I feel the need to share.

I have been suffering for over a week now with the tremendous back pain. Over the last 2 days I have been in so much pain I have barely been able to walk and have not been able to work. A stress this close to the season not wanting to let down any clients.

Anyways, I went to a Chiropractor for the first time in my life yesterday and today it seemed believe it or not worse. Scary as I have never been to one before.

Today the day before all my family traditions start. Pie making, food preparing, shopping for food, making sure all the stocking were done being stuffed, you know all the last minute holy shit Christmas moments.

None of this really matters other than to tell you that hardly being able to walk and lots of shopping to do left me with one option. A shopping scooter throughout Wal-Mart. Some maybe thinking what is the problem, so let me explain. I am 39 years old, 350 pounds. I cannot believe I just wrote that….. What would you be thinking looking at a fat woman riding around in a scooter? Esp. middle aged….omg….fat person……holy shit…….

You would be thinking the same thing as I am not proud to say I would be thinking. Wow too fat to walk. Get some exercise that is gross. I am just being honest when I respond this way so no point taking it the wrong way.

Talk about a low moment in my life. I admit that I already know I have weight to loose, but to be that exposed is a very difficult thing to face. Needless to say if you would have seen me today with my head dropped low and my eyes looking at the ground, the isles, anywhere but people. Not really something most could imagine by someone as opinionated and outspokenly confident as I come across to be.

My husband I will say and my daughter Kailyn made it so much better for because the support was out of this world. Kailyn never left my side, never faltered for a minute. Looked at everyone in the eye and said Merry Christmas. I am so proud of her. Brian was so amazing too right with me the whole time, watching people, almost daring them to judge his wife. I am very lucky.

I should also say rather emotional and tense lately as I have recently quit smoking, or at least so far. I believe in an hour by an hour day by day thing here.

As I am scooting through out the store, at my lowest in a very long time, it hits my like a ton of bricks.

I did this to myself. We all do it to ourselves. Nobody has forced me to eat in the last 17 years. Plenty of time to get past that. Nobody stops me from eating properly and loosing weight but me. So I put myself here. I did this.

I have allowed myself to be in bad spots before and I have learnt to get past it. Learnt to grow and become stronger. My confidence started to grow as my acceptance did.

It is funny but when you take the time to realize why you are responsible for where your life is in every aspect. You actually get a feeling almost like you are being freed from that torment you have been living through.

I have dealt with way worse than this, and I have gotten over it, out of it, way past it. The only thing stopping my weight loss is me, the only thing griping out not smoking is my head and the only thing standing in the way of the life I want is ME!

Today became the worst/best day I have had in a long time. I no longer feel sorry for myself and that is how it works. Accept the responsibility is the only way to start.

So this for me is the best Christmas present ever and because of instant results. My back is better than it has been in days. I am sitting up on my bed typing. No cane, No feeling like I can’t move. The law of attraction, manifestation is an amazing thing. So well you are dreaming of sugar plums and lolly pops. I am going to be dreaming about Victoria secret outfits that fit. I will probably dream about my husband and Kailyn too, because lucky for me I manifested them too.

Love my life. Merry Christmas everyone. 

The Ultimate Christmas present kids will never forget!

So in the last post, it was all about tis the season to learn to not stress.....Make family your greatest present, and the feedback says we get it.

I was having my late coffee night with my best friend Rex, last night, it was Monday after all. Not sure I thought that one through completely as I woke up to pounding being done in my pool room. Perhaps I should remember when my husband says they are coming to replace the felt on the table that this would mean not to go to bed really late in the future, oh well live and learn.

While sitting talking about everything and anything like we do on our coffee nights the topic of presents, saving some money and giving the kids what they will care about came up.

I thought back to when I was growing up, I took a moment and thought about what would have meant the most to me, and the truth is it would have been that my parents took time to notice me. Took the time to know me enough that their present would show me they know my good things and my not so good.

When I was growing up I would make coupon books for my parents. Coupons that they could use to get me to do things I would normally complain about without any issues. I did it because I couldn't afford to buy them anything and I wanted them to have something.

It hit me, what a great idea!

A coupon book that shows the kids you pay attention.

Here are some of the ideas I came up with....

Remember to think back to when you were a kid, what kind of things would you want to get for free?

1) Get out of shit. This entitles ______________________ to use this coupon right before Mom or Dad are going to start yelling and screaming. You will get out of trouble without punishment on  certain conditions. You not break the law, do not break _________ (used your prize position.)

2) Mom or Dad will do your chores for the day. ( Needs to be a day off as mom and dad might be a little busy paying the mortgage,)

3) Skip school for the day. (we need days off work and if you say that you have never in your life called in sick when you weren't, I might have to call bull)

4) kick dads ass at video games all day. ( let them show us what they can do)

5) sleep in as late as I want card. Must be presented the night before, only to be used during holidays or weekend. Can go with with skip school day.

6) Teach dad to skateboard.

7) Mom does the homework for one subject for one day.

8) get the day with the parents. if the parents have plans the kids can use this coupon to make you cancel your plans and spend the day with them watching movies.

9) family game night with McDonald's.

10) trade roles for the day. You are the parent and I am the kid.... (think about how much fun they would have with this one... It is one day.....)

I could keep going here but the fun is making it to suit your kids, or your spouse....You can even laminate them and make them trading cards if you have more than one kid.... wrap it up in a box and your kids will love it....The great part is so will you, because when they use the coupons, you will know what they need. It will give you a chance to turn things into a team family.

Get creative, show the ones you love that giving the gift of you is way better than what you could buy.....


Have some fun this Christmas and show the family you love them........

I will post some picks of my trading cards as I make them...

Kjarlune

Tis the season to be stressed out....Fa la la la la la la la la

Christmas is the most stressful time of the year. My director actually made me tired last night when he described his Christmas, they run around literally from morning to night, back, forth, back, forth. Non stop and that does not even begin to describe the stress most of us feel while having to somehow someway come up with extra money for presents.

In this day and age not even presents, man the TV is showing a good parent buys their kids a big screen TV new lap top and an Iphone. It has all gotten out of hand, and we have let it happen.

Now don't misunderstand me, us business owners have a job to do in December. Being totally honest that job is to sell more. Christmas is the best time of the year for shopping. There are sales everywhere you look, specials all over the place, yet the stress is still sitting weighing heavy on us, to out due, make sure, and supply a Christmas for those that we love.

In the last two weeks I have heard more tension and stress about our coming yule tide cheer than I have heard any other year. Heck even my house has had some un needed stress and worry about Santa coming.

Have we lost the point of Christmas all together? It isn't about what is under the tree, I know everyone says that, but if it was really what everyone felt then where is the stress coming from?

I cannot say I am any different than anyone else, Christmas has been my time of year every year to spoil my kids...Okay who am I kidding everyday has been my time of year to spoil my kids. The more I have the more I want them to have, but we are making a mistake.

We are falling out of love with a holiday that is about tradition, and snuggling with our loved ones. A nice dinner a spot of eggnog and rum, laughing and loving the people we have in our lives.

We have fallen into the trap of caring whats under the tree, going into debt, stressing out beyond what most of us can handle. and it is time to stop.

Sure the kids want the new xbox, the phones, the crap but at the end of the day, they don't need it. What we all need is each other, what our kids needs is some special time, a tradition they can count on, a time of the year that they don't have to have a relationship with their parents in the hallways while we say love you heading to work, or did you get your homework done while trying to throw some supper together so that you can finish the work you brought home. Trust me in five years they are not going to remember what they got, only what the day was like.

They ask for the xbox because they can but what they really want is us. What we all really want for Christmas is love, some family time, a great afternoon nap while smelling the turkey cooking.

Stop stressing and start enjoying. If the money is tight, buy some inexpensive family games and attach a note to it that says once a week is family night. Give them the gift of love, a letter telling them what they mean to you, what sharing the last year with them has done for you.

Make Christmas the time of love not stress. Have a friend over for dinner, make a coupon book that gives the gift of you. Lord knows my kids would love a week of their choice off from doing chores, now that's a gift.

Get back to the reason for the season, love, friends, family and some much needed time off.

Trust me when I tell you they are not going to love those great big presents enough to except you working overtime for 6 months to pay them off.

Give the people you love the greatest gift of all, give them you.

We are all going through difficult times, money is tight for everyone. Adults don't need gifts they need love. Kids don't need expensive they need their parents. Be thankful feel blessed for the warm house, the great Christmas dinner.

I normally go to extreme at Christmas, I am not even coming close to lying when I say it is normally a 10-15 thousand dollar touch for me, but you know what? Not this year. That DJ hero my daughter needed so bad last year has not been touched in months, those books, they have all been read and now my 10 year old is bored, I can't remember which piece of jewelery my husband got me last year. Oh wait yes I can, he got me a ring I love but never wear.

The stress is not worth it. The worrying is not worth it.. This is the first year in 20 that  I am not stressing, there will be two presents under the tree for every child, Santa's and their letters. Nope this year is about what my kids need most. They need me, they need Brian and they need to know we love them, believe it or not what we spend on them doesn't show that.

That new phone is just going to get them into trouble, the new PlayStation a reason to not talk to their parents, and no one needs a lulu lemon sweatshirt.

The truth is we have all screwed up and it is time to change it. For the first time I am excited about Christmas, our special ornaments on the tree, that wish when the angel gets lit, gingerbread molasses cookies. Lazy boy subs, with hot chocolate and peppermint schnapps on Christmas eve.

Kailyn while watching Christmas movies, whispering to Amanda's belly how much grandma loves Hailey. My kids moving home so I can enjoy my grand baby full time. The tears and hugs when they read their Christmas letters. Cuddling with my husband while watching the lights on the tree dance. Thanking god for being so blessed.

I am looking forward to a couple of days off with my family. Toni coming for Christmas, Nadia coming for supper. Rex and my nephews sharing the day with me. My mom and dad coming to laugh and enjoy with us. I am looking forward to Christmas, the real meaning, not a gift. They don't really matter.

We are all so blessed this year and that includes being blessed about being broke. The best thing that can happen is not having money for Christmas because then you can see what it is really about.

To my family, I am the luckiest mom, wife, sister, daughter in the world, the only gift that could ever matter is the gift of each of you in my life.

So what does this psychic want for Christmas???  Santa's already been and he left me love.

Enjoy the holiday, strop stressing and love the life you are living,..


Love My Life Kjarlune Rae.

Jump the gun!

It does not matter what is happening in our lives. You can be guaranteed that it is worse or better because of our emotions.

Just today alone I have two appointments where my clients have actually known the direction their life is going, the reality of what is really happening in their lives, yet their emotion got in the way. Convincing them of the opposite.

There is always at least two sides to everything going on in your life. The reality and what your emotion says it is.

How many times do we get into stupid arguments with our spouse because we "misunderstood" what they were trying to say. Or didn't pay attention to the whole situation and instead just jumped the gun.

Issues at work because we assumed, or even worse. Convincing ourselves that someone is mad at us, that something isn't right, even though you have no proof of that what so ever!

The claim is that we spend too much time in our heads, but maybe the truth is we spend too much time in our emotions. In our poor poor pitiful me.

Creating stress over things that are not worth stressing about and if we could just take a second and pull our heads out of our own butts, we would know that. We would understand and know that things are not as they seem.

The reality is things are never as they seem. You create the struggles in your life even when you don't know you are.

Manifestation is very simple to do, everyone of us do it everyday of our lives. Most of the time it is because we are jumping the gun. We are convincing ourselves things are going to be a certain way. It is just as easy to have life go right as it to have it go wrong, but what is the first thing you think about? The bad, the complicated, the difficult.

We are such complicated creatures in such a simple world. It is time to take the wax out of our ears, pay attention to what is really happening. What is really supposed to be happening, what is really meant to be.

If it isn't broken stop trying to fix it and if you are not messed up stop telling yourself that you are.

It is simple, no more jumping the gun and start paying attention to reality. In order for something to be we have to believe in it. It cannot happen unless you believe it can

When you can't believe, can't understand or officially need a head removal from butt kicking call me, the rest of the time start believing and make it happen.

love
KJ